Wake Up Call

Well, before i start babbling, i wanna say that i am alive and going..very much breathing ok? Just because i don't blog doesn't mean i don't exist...but i wish i reall didn't exist.....anyway

well anyway, i guess this holidays had me thinking...alot....a whole lot...

well, for starters,, i guess when i am old and retire, i will go on a trip around the world...japan, taiwan, china, paris, london, australia, hawaii, africa...and more to come.

next, i guess after some sudden realisation (and i mean the kind when you wake up in the morning and it struck you), i am proud to announce that i am a 3 minute person...what's that you may ask...well, that's a kind of person that gets into new things easily but gets sick of them easily unless its challenging and stuuff, but when it's no longer interesting, bye bye... yup, that's me....here are some examples.....

-in primary school, i started learning karate with my brother when i was P2. i continued to learn until i got a black belt...which was P4 or P5 i guess...and i soon loss interest in it....i mean, hello, black belt, and you're like only 10, and its obviously a great accomplishment...and anyway, my bro had graduated and had stopped learning...yaya, i know there's still dan 1 and dan 2...etc....(for those who know what it is), it's still goal accomplished to me....

-and there was this time when i learnt roller skating, i started out real enthusiastic and all, and i was really passionate in it for like a few weeks...then, when i got a hang of it, it became boring...no longer a challenge...well, it was fun...

-and there was the time when i became a prefect ever since P4, i always wanted a new duty everytime there was a change...i have done flag raising and lowering, class duty (never once the same when i change the class i look after), canteen duty, hall duty, eco garden duty, late comers, class cleanliness....aw...it was really a memorable time.......

-of course, when i decided to quit malay...i know some of you may say its a waste, but, that's me....

-or many other common things i do everyday...i mean there will be periods that i get into music, then books, (harry potter, than roald dahl, lord of the rings), then tv shows, then food. really i mean i am an unpredictable person...i don't know myself sometimes....

And all of these examples lead to one thing ultimately, should i change my cca? i mean there's no tying me down....its take it or leave it...and do.it's not that i don't like my cca....i do...really...i love being able to save people and look smart drills but its like a hobby...you don't do it frequently.....and besides, when company gets bad, and people gets ( forgive me for saying this) bitchy, it really gets on my nerves....i mean isn't a cca supposed to be somewhere to let loose and learn something new? is there a need to be arrogant, proud, and so on? i am not directing this to anyone, but that's how i feel...deep in my heart....but anyway, i really love, and i mean adore love, changes......so i thinking maybe i should change my cca...come to think of it, i am really easliy influenced...not in a bad way but i tend to follow my brother's foot steps....like when i wanted to take 3rd language when i was sec 1 (jap but had to make do wit malay). getting into the school i am in now...taking up the same cca....its time to make my own decisions and not let his, waver mine...................

ah.....why am i complicating my own life..